Senior Reflection

It has taken me more than half an hour to start this reflection because of what I want to share. However, I think I know what I want to basically tell in my post. College wasn’t meant to last forever and I am definitely okay with this. I want to get past this part of my life. The people that mattered in my life during college know what I would say about them and I don’t want to pour my heart into these posts for them not to read them. What I feel like writing about is about how I really feel yet it isn’t for just anyone to read it as they are my personal feelings and I don’t like people reading me like a book. I could however do the generic college was the “best years of my life” but that would be a lie and no one deserves to be lied to. I guess I don’t have passion to write everything down in a reflection post because it can’t nearly sum up how I feel and if I did then no one would understand but just see how complex my thinking is and I don’t do that anymore. I am conflicted on how to write because my thoughts aren’t a job and after writing these post for 4 years it has felt like a job. Explaining my life is draining and when I dump out my life story to people. I also don’t want to spill tea that I have to just anyone. I really want nothing I just prefer being the Introvert that I am. I suppose it’s safe to say is I prefer just keeping to myself because it’s better for me. I guess a reflective thought is I really don’t want people to say “I know him” when they barely scratch the surface through a post. I am not a bad person for not sharing my life story but I prefer not pouring my life into many cups with holes in them. I loved going to counseling for my two year stint so that’s something. There isn’t anything to talk about Senior year really because I was just going through the motions I never looked back. I just kept going.

RSO Involvement

Wow, Senior year,  I am still participating in clubs at CMU. It is one of my favorite things to look forward to. Yet, my service organization is found outside of the college as I am passionaite in my hometown community services. Like I have been since early on in my life I have participated in Scouting. This year I was getting geared up to help call people to promote camping for summer of 2020. However, because of COVID-19 I was unable to perform this as now camping has become a scarce thing to do. I am considering on helping out after COVID-19 pandemic. I really hope for the best. My time for service was short this year BUT my service does not stop at college it never began at fulfilling requirements. It started because I cared for the betterment of my community.